Some days you wake up
weary. This morning was one of those
days. Now most women who are 28 weeks
pregnant, work full time, in Seminary, and have a 6 and 8 year old wake up
weary. But this wasn’t your average, “I’m
not sleeping and I could use a nap,” weary.
This was soul weariness. I woke up weary of my own flesh and the choices
that arise out of that. I am weary of
the constant hurt I see in the world. I
am weary of seeing my friends and family desperate for Jesus, set up one more
false idol in their lives to try and fill the void that only He can fill. I am weary of seeing lost youth, without a dad
in the home, wandering around town making trouble because they have no one at
home to teach them otherwise. I am weary
of ministry and feeling like most of the messages the Lord gives to me to give
to others seems to fall on deaf ears. I
am weary of the Devil and his plans and schemes; his constant attacks. I am weary of addiction and how it warps
minds, hearts, and lives; how it impacts generations in one family. I am weary of divorce and daddies who have
forgotten the wife of their youth. I am
weary of cancer and the havoc it is wreaking on my own family and on friends. I
am weary of reading about one more tragedy.
I am weary...bone weary.
Have you had days like
that? I am sure if you have been on this
earth for any length of time that you have woken up to a despair that is so deep
in your soul that it is hard to even describe for another person to understand. For a moment this morning all I wanted was to
just give up. Satan whispered, what’s
the point? There is too much darkness
and not enough light so just succumb to the discouragement and just give up
battling for what you know to be true.
For a moment, the prospect of just not caring as much or praying as much
or entering into people’s hurt as much sounded appealing. “Rest,” I thought. If you don’t really care about what happens
to the world and you turn a blind eye it doesn’t hurt as bad. And that is true, it doesn’t. I could build up nice little walls and create
a nice little life for myself where I wouldn’t allow others to penetrate and
live that way for the next 50 years.
There is just one big problem with that prospect. It is always the question
“Is that God’s will? Is that what He is calling you and me to do?”
Yesterday at staff
meeting, I prayed for the men and women I am so privileged to serve with and
God brought to mind, Galatians 6:9 “Let us not become weary in doing good, for
at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” As I told God this morning how tired I was
and how bad it all hurt, and do I really need to apologize one more time? Do I really need to keep trying to train my
children in the way they should go so when they are old they won’t depart from
the faith? Do I really need to keep
praying for people who don’t seem to care that you go regularly on their behalf
to the mercy seat and you intercede for them?
Do I Lord? Does it even make a
difference? The Lord brought back the
words that had encouraged others yesterday and emphatically said Misty, DO NOT
give up doing the right thing, regardless of what fruit you don’t see, because
I promised that the fruit is coming, IF you don’t give up. Tears streamed down my face as I felt God ministering
to the deepest part of my soul and I thanked Him; thanked Him that His Word is
His Word. I thanked Him for the
encouragement to keep going on a day where that seemed virtually impossible. I thanked Him that He reminded me of what my
part is to play. I do the right thing,
regardless of who is listening, regardless of what difference I think it makes,
regardless if I see fruit, because He tells me to keep doing the right thing
and not to grow weary in doing the right thing and to TRUST HIM for the results.
Don’t grow weary in:
Forgiving others
Showing love to those
who can do nothing for you
Reading God’s Word when
you feel like it’s just words on a page
Praying to Him when it
feels like it’s only going ceiling high
Training up your
children to love God and others
Caring for others and
encouraging them
Taking a meal to a sick
friend
Extending grace to the
nasty teller at the bank, the forgetful cashier at the drive thru line, the guy
who cuts you off on the road, the Facebook user whose status updates annoy you,
the child who forgets their backpack, the spouse who just doesn’t understand
you at times
Serving at church when
no one else is
Biting your tongue when
you could say exactly what is on your mind
Asking for forgiveness
when you’ve done the wrong thing
Keeping a grateful heart
even when life seems to be throwing you lemon after lemon after lemon
Looking into the eyes of
a homeless person, truly looking at them, and telling them they have a worth
that is far above the $10 bill you put in their hand and a Savior who loves
them; dirty, homeless, and with nothing to offer Him because we recognize in so
many ways that’s how we all look to God when we come to the Cross of Christ,
seeking forgiveness for our sins.
Keep going, keep doing
the right thing, and don’t grow weary.
As I got into the car to
head to work Come to Me by Jen Johnson came to mind to listen. I listened to it
3 times in a row because I believe the message of this song is what allows us
to not grow weary and gives us the power we need to keep doing what He has
called us to do. Here are the lyrics:
I am the Lord your God, I go before you now
I stand beside you, I’m all around you
Though you feel I’m far away, I’m closer than your breath
I am with you, more than you know
I stand beside you, I’m all around you
Though you feel I’m far away, I’m closer than your breath
I am with you, more than you know
I am the Lord your peace, no evil will conquer you
Steady now your heart and mind, come into My rest
Oh, let your faith arise, lift up your weary head
I am with you wherever you go
Steady now your heart and mind, come into My rest
Oh, let your faith arise, lift up your weary head
I am with you wherever you go
Come to Me, I’m all you need.
Come to Me, I’m everything
Come to Me, I’m all you need.
Come to Me, I’m your everything
Come to Me, I’m everything
Come to Me, I’m all you need.
Come to Me, I’m your everything
I am your anchor, in the wind and the waves
I am your steadfast, so don’t be afraid
Though your heart and flesh may fail you, I’m your faithful strength
I am with you wherever you go
I am your steadfast, so don’t be afraid
Though your heart and flesh may fail you, I’m your faithful strength
I am with you wherever you go
Come to Me, I’m all you need.
Come to Me, I’m your everything
Come to Me, I’m all you need.
Come to Me, I’m your everything
Come to Me, I’m your everything
Come to Me, I’m all you need.
Come to Me, I’m your everything
Don’t look to the right or to the left but keep your eyes on
Me
You will not be shaken, you will not be moved ooh
I am the hand to hold, I am the truth, I am the way
Just come to Me, come to Me, cause I’m all that you need
You will not be shaken, you will not be moved ooh
I am the hand to hold, I am the truth, I am the way
Just come to Me, come to Me, cause I’m all that you need
Each time I listened to this song,
the message got louder and louder. Oh,
that today we could all understand what complete and total access we have to
God. He loves us. He is for us. He is
fighting with us and He is THE answer to keep fighting the fight, to not grow
weary and to keep doing the right thing.
I’m praying over each of my friends and family today that you will Come
to the One who can supply all that you need.
Come to the One who meets your needs.
Come to the One who can give you the grace to extend when you have
none. Come to the One who has the
ability to love the unlovable through you, to forgive those who hurt you, and to
continue to carry the Good News into the darkest of darkness. Come to Him today and let your weariness turn
to strength, your sadness to joy, your conflict to peace, and your
discouragement to bold faith to keep doing the right thing.